Burns: U/H/H , Crossroads , Mars, Sweetening
Protection ritual: Chaela
Quick backstory — had a fallout w/ the husband. he started wilding out after that and it had ya girl hurt hurt.
Burned U/H/H for both of us and that spiritual high was a beast. I slept so good for like a week straight i low-key want to buss it out again but I got heavy lineup so i’m going to have to run that back in a few weeks.
So after U/H/H the husband was super chill towards me. He was communicating all of his moves and just being suggestive that he was feeling me just a little bit. Now he wasn’t sweet just calmer. He was still getting on the PS5 every night and wasn’t really checking for me like that like that but had cut the BS out for the week. I was still craving loving messages from him or quality time but I knew I had to move onto crossroads before any of that would come.
*Insert protection ritual*
Prior to burning crossroads I got ahead of myself and decided to initiate a conversation about his lack of communication towards me ( like a dummy pt. 1 ). He got agitated and was like it’s because he has no interest in talking to me he feels like the past won’t change blah blah blah… I mean i care and validate his feelings but also right now I’m not trying to hear that cause I already know hence why I’m working my magic. and what really set me off about my dumba** move is the timing of it because I was like damn I’m about to burn tomorrow.
I was stressed out about what he said so I ended up not burning the next day because I needed to check my energy first. Burned Crossroads 2 days later with better energy and was hype to remove any blockage I might have for this lineup. Not going to lie I was lowkey sad it wasn’t the same high as U/H/H cause I really wanted to ride that out but the remnants of being chill was still there. The movement was dope. Since he works long days and doesn’t get home until late night he started coming home and giving me a whole recap of his day ( it’s been a min since he did that.) he was eager to talk to me but again this is coming at the end of the day so I’m not getting any messages or calls during the day. Tuesday night he came in on the phone w/ his friend and was like yeah I gotta go im about to talk to wifey. ( my heart dropped. that term of endearment after being in turmoil for weeks was everything).
*insert Mars after crossroads*
Okay so dummy move pt.2 city girls down 100 points — I decided THE NIGHT BEFORE SWEETENING without a blues clue that I was going to get an attitude about a phone conversation he had which the person on the line clearly asked something in regards to how things were with us and he said “moving gradually” but can’t talk about it now ( cause I was in the room ) and since i couldn’t hear what was said and usually my ear hustling game is top notch I got in my feels thinking the worse. I didn’t confront him but since my energy shifted he got in his bag and was like see that’s why I don’t want to work on us. I was tight like gah damn I keep rocking the damn boat. He ended up sleeping on the couch.
Okay next day ( burn day ) yesterday as soon as I got up I went to work on my candle. But where I messed up was that unlike the caution I took with crossroads I jumped in with energy knowingly needing to shift it. I chanted and let it burn 9 hours but I didn’t feel right about it cause we were still going back and forth so I snuffed it. Since I couldn’t sleep I journaled from 2am to 6am. ( today ) and put myself in a calmer place to relight and this time I asked for him to just be calm no extra ish straight to the point. I finished it, buried it and now we are here in this moment where things are calm he’s on the game and paying me zero attention but he’s calm and got us food that’s good enough for me. It just burned today and my energy is good so I’ll follow up with how that turned out.
I intended to do B’LA and or 3rd POV next week but I gotta chill all the way out and not stir up ish just because I’m in my bag. plus I got the relationship renewal with Tina in 2 weeks so i have some good work ahead. Idk I may need to revise my lineup which I’m equipped with most except domination and obsession which are in route.
This sh*t is ghetto.
And by that I mean the feelssss of wanting my stink.
U definitely gotta chill out sis stop putting more fuel to fire!!! U need to work on Healing alotttttt more there seem to be alottttt of stuff going on, heal what ever in the past that he is not quiet over or it’s bothersome to him and healing on yourself also for past, present and future trauma. U definitely need more sweetening to use on ya self also then do DA on ya self if u have Jezebel use that for him to be more generous with quality time for u. Then move to layer 3rd POV and Blood Lamour if u have rekindle u definitely should light that, loyalty for him to be loyal with consistency of his time, affections and commitment to u, then domination or do as I say to control everything.